Journal Entry No.2

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So today I turn 30.

It’s crazy to even think about, really. I mean obviously it was inevitable, but the fact that it is here is pretty insane. I certainly don’t feel 30, although, to be honest, I wish I did. 

30 has never been a scary age for me, in fact I’ve been excited to be 30 for probably the past two years, but this year it was constantly on my mind and I think it definitely affected me. I was never someone who had to (or even wanted to) be married with kids at this point, but I must have had some idea in my head of where I wanted to be, because I don’t feel like I’m quite there. 

I’m assuming this has more to do on the professional end of things, career wise, I guess. I’ve never had any idea of what I wanted to be “when I grow up” and I think turning 30 and still not knowing was kind of a hard pill to swallow. 

Like I said, this thought has been with me all year and within the past couple of months, I’ve been moving past it. I’m sure nothing will really change and I am more than happy to leave my 20’s in the past. 

They were certainly good years, especially the last half, but like I said, I have always looked forward to turning 30, so while it’s a bit of a shock, I am more than ready for this next phase of life. 

“don’t be in such a rush to figure everything out. embrace the unknown and let life surprise you”

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  1. December 16, 2016 / 4:20 pm

    Happy birthday! You're handling it way better than me. I turned 26 last July and acted like a blubbering baby. I think women get such a bad vibe getting older because we fear judgement and time. At least I do. I am so happy you are looking toward the future and I know your's will be bright! (: Have a wonderful day!

  2. December 19, 2016 / 3:41 am

    Happiest of birthdays Shannon! The 30's are where its at, I'm telling you:) I hope you've been spoiled rotten.

    Heidi || Wishes & Reality

  3. December 20, 2016 / 4:11 am

    I hope you had a wonderful birthday! And thank you for sharing, too. I think it's weird for sure with the whole knowing what you want to be "when you grow up"… I don't really feel like I have any clue sometimes, but it helps to remember everyone is on their own timeline. You got this, lady!

    Kathryn • simplykk.com

  4. December 20, 2016 / 3:05 pm

    Happy belated birthday! I turned 30 in November, and it was REALLY hard for me. I am definitely no where near where I thought I would be at 30. I still feel like I am 12 and have absolutely no clue about anything. Hope you had a fabulous birthday!

    Nikki
    thefashionablewife.com

  5. December 22, 2016 / 6:13 am

    Happy Birthday! I turn 27 in March and I am terrified of 30. I really hope that I learn to be at peace with aging… because as you said – it's inevitable.

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